Why must things be this way?

i wonder, if you ever spare a thought or two.

i try my best not to, but i had to.

blame my heart & my mind, not my soul ; for thinking like this.

Can anyone tell me why i'm feeling like this?

I can't find the answer even though i searched hard.

This minute i'm happy, but the next minute it's the other way round.

This change of mood results to my unfinished meal.