S__HA.: December 2008

i can't seem to be on hiatus.
cos everytime i do, i'd always have something to blog about.
i don't have any other alternative besides this blog.
i tried to have a diary, but it will always get lost. or i would use it to doodle. ^^

i somehow think it's my fault though.
i'm feeling miserable/awful/guilty. :(
when i set my mind on something(someone, i mean),there's always a trillion obstacles/challenges behind it. jeez, i don't know if i can take it any longer. but i want to. & i must! ('=
i can't help it but to cry+smile after reading the card. *touches heart*

It's so irritating when you keep on receiving calls from someone and that someone refuse to tell who he/she is.
I hate this part right here, yikes.

"get lost, or i'll get someone to break your legs!" - little nyonya, (:
LOL!

oh, i'm addicted to this song now,
"ponyo, ponyo, ponyo. she's a little girl.
she's a little girl, with a round tummy."

ZOO~! :)

i love zoo!
(25TH, CHRISTMAS)

went for breakfast at 830am, then headed off to the zoo.
i think they should have an age limits or i duno what it's called.
but jyeah, those NC16, M18 stuffs you know. cos i swear the zoo was full of dirty animals.
and i mean, horny animals. it was uber disgusting man! yucks. they should like make a private suite or discipline the animals not to do those stuffs you knw.
and i got freaked out by the maned wolf cos they were growling (?) and i was standing like 10feets away from it but sis stood near to them and i keep on shouting 'kakak! kakak!'. lol i felt like i'm back to 5 years old. haha. then was the butterfly enclosure. loads of them were flying around and i hate insects so much even though they are a beau. and there's this butterfly that was flying around me and settled down on my left shoulder, and i was shouting like it was a gun not a butterfly. oh and i fed the kangaroos, aww so adorable. but the saliva were all over my right palm. blearghs*.

hmm, what else. well, there's the kidz world where things are only meant for kids. i wanted to ride this pony so much. but i can't seemed to trick them my age even though i'm petit! -_-

ooh i saw a caucasian toddler and he was so cute. like very small and chubby, with big blue eyes and blonde hair and pink lips and cute teeth and sweet smile and and 'big for a baby' thighs. hahaha love at first sight.
LOL, i don't bother to write everything that happened. & lazy to upload the pictures.
cos this laptop's internet connection is getting on my nerves now.

Right, so today went out with Farah & Nad.

Woke up at 7, did the laundry, texted both of them and slept back.

Was awakened by another text message at 10 and then wanted to sleep back but farah disallow me to. Turned here, turned there and then decided to get ready early and go the library to borrow a book since i'm in need of something that i can fill my time with. Went out at 1230, took bus 3 then saw Yan in the bus. Chit chatted about teachers and homeworks and life and some other uninmportant things. When the bus entered Tampines, Khairul boarded the bus but whatever, didn't talk. At Tampines Interchange, saw Springfielders, ignored and just walk straight to the library. It was easy finding the perfect book. I was actually searching for Sophie Kinsella's books, but it was nowhere to be found so i borrowed a stupid book which i forgot what it's about. Amazingly, luck was by my side. When i was about to exit HUGO Room, i saw Sophie Kinsella's book, Shopaholic Goes Manhattan. *wide smile* Grabbed it, and voila! Farah called and told me to meet her and Nad at Mr Teh Tarik. Went to the bus stop, and 291(s) were all full. I got frustrated, cos the day was hot and there's this small kid who keeps on following me wherever i go and sat really close to me. Cute tu cute, but rimas! ^^

Gave up on 291, took 8 and met them. Ate at McD and it is gonna be the FIRST and the LAST time i'm eating Fillet-O-Fish,cos it's (fill in the blank with any words that means yucky.)

Bought my dad's stuffs, withdraw some cash and then went to Tmart to get Donuts :D

Saw Najib, he was on the way to the grandmama's house. Then saw Afiq, and Farah decided to scare him. She called him.

Farah: Afiq, i sawwwwww yooooooouuuuuuuuuuuu.

Afiq: Okay.

Farah: You're wearing red.

Afiq: Okay.

Farah: You're at the bus stop.

Afiq: Okay.

Farah: & now you're taking 28.

Afiq: Okay.

Farah: OI! =.= Wave to macdonalds!

Nadhirah: Later people thought he's nuts.

LOL. Walked all the way to afghan's stop by 630pm.

Was at the traffic light. When,

Nadhirah: OMG! 8!

Me: 8 slalu cepat kan datang?

Farah: erm, 34 is behind it.

Me: OMG! gotta run.

Nad wanted to 'you know i know' so she couldn't catched up with 8 but i got onto 34 :D

Why must things be this way?

i wonder, if you ever spare a thought or two.

i try my best not to, but i had to.

blame my heart & my mind, not my soul ; for thinking like this.

Can anyone tell me why i'm feeling like this?

I can't find the answer even though i searched hard.

This minute i'm happy, but the next minute it's the other way round.

This change of mood results to my unfinished meal.

this dissapointed small heart.

Let me list down the movies i wana watch in descending order.

Cicakman 2
Angus, Thongs & Perfect Snoggings
Bedtime Stories
The Day The Earth Stood Still
YESMAN!

nyahaha. greedy seh shahira. *winks*
8 more days to school! amazingly, i can't wait for school! ^^
First time feeling mcm gini.
I miss too much things i guess.
Like mine & am's desk that has ashraf's vandalism.
or, my perfect place where i can see almost everything from where i sit.
but i can't get to see it next yr :( but anyway it's already been cleaned off.
missed looking through microscopes, missed cutting potatoes, missed copying down notes, missed listening to them sing, missed msging in class, missed shouting across the class to mira, missed feeling frustrated, missed saying "good morning/afternoon teacher", missed staring at Ms Seah, missed dianah saying i'm semangat writing down the vocab or words i don't understand, missed the silence whenever mr zaki is teaching, missed zul & haikal's counting down to recess & end of school.
okay, there's no end to what i'm saying :D
i'll stop here! but i sure got a lot more things that i missed in school. and 3h.
grrs, but no more 3h nxt yr, it'll be 4h.
argh, i find 4 a weird number. i mean, tht would mean i'll be a yr older, i'll be graduating, i'll be the oldest among the youngest, i'll be gaining lotsa weight. cos if i'm bored or stressed up, i'll eat, eat and eat! :)

does tht mean i won't have the time to watch late night cartoons anymr?
*crying!*

my introduction so long ah, haha.
right, so i went to whitesands with mira today.
had burger king, then headed to the cafe inside the library.
& bought my school bag.
& a new hair band.
& we made a lot of trips to the toilet.

then at around 4, i head home. & she went to meet syafiq.
so now i'm rotting at home.
GET IT? R-O-T-T-I-N-G!
(:
was planning to go for breakfast at tmart mcd tmr, then take 59 at the ESSO bus stop to Balestier, fetched sis from work, & then go TM. wait, i feel like going Far East O.o
anyway, i knw, wth from tampines to balestier then to tampines back. weird kan?
but what to do, i'm oh-so bored! morning tv shows now sucks big time (!!!)

dammit, i wanna go watch Mickey Mouse Clubhouse.
bye.

- aishiteru -

I changed my blogskin, yet again.
Can't seem to find a perfect one.

"ask the stars that you're the only one i love"
or "tanya bintang-bintang hanya kaulah yang ku sayang"

I CAN'T WAIT FOR X'MAS! or better said, I'M GOING TO ZOOOO!
I know, like small kid. But i can't help it but to say that i miss the zoo so much.
Haha, i wanna visit Fabel, the Fallabella horse that Sis & I named. (:
She's 3 years old now.
sobbing.
She's so big now, *wiping tears*
Well said, like a mum to a daughter.
what the hell.

cauldron full of tears.

Sunday, 21st Dec.

I can honestly say, i thought of you when i woke up today.

-under this moonlight-

I'm in need of a school bag.

The perfect one.

SPLIT, ZINC, ROXY (?)

If only we humans do not have to make decisions, i guess everyone would be leading a dependent life.

Jeez, & so the blondie attracted Feezah.

Golden Brownhead? O.o

NAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I still got the best of the best. [:

Dahlah,goodnight.

(mcm siang gitu eh)

I'm sure, this time.

I'm sorry.
Terribly sorry.

From now on, i'll only be updating if there's anything interesting.
I shall make this blog, a happy and lively one.

Shahira, ask yourself,
Why is your brain processing very slow nowadays?
Why can't people understand?
Why is it so hard to deal with life?
Why must it be this way?
When the hell are you gonna be a brand new leaf?
How can you make other people happy?
Why must everything come to you at a go?
& WHY CAN'T YOU HANDLE A DAD?!
damn it.
Jason Mraz, life isn't wonderful at all.
You're wrong, you're totally wrong.
Yes, true it takes no time to fall in love.
But it seems to take forever to prove to someone you love.

They say that good things takes time.
But i know, great things happened in a blink of an eye.
Wait, i STINK! (mentally okay).

CHANGE! CHANGE! CHANGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
I know i can do it, i believe so i can change.
I can become a better person.
I would & i must.
******
So what? Hate life right now?
Nah, no regrets. Just lessons.

Busu's house, again.

Fizah & Me went Busu's house again. (:
Promised Busu to come at 2 or 3. But ended up reaching her house at 6 :D

As usual, the 2 kids were excited! So adorable.

Ate Busu's sungguh the pedas Mee Goreng. & chicken & ice-cream.

and i drank 5 glasses of Ice Peach Tea.

Watched Night at the Museum & part of Hairspray.

& headed home at 9. Though it was only for a short while, we had great fun.

Sleeping over Busu's house prolly next week?

Wait this part is cute.

When we're getting ready to head home, Fizah gave Harith a hug. (he likes it)

& he looked at me.

*silence*

Fizah : I think he wants a hug from you.

*stoink*

& he was so adorable, hugged my waist(?)

lols. he was so scared of people when he was still small. but now, screamo!

FOOTBALL TMRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRWWWWW [:

& HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY ABANG HISHAM [:

THURSDAY, 18th.

TWILIGHT! [:

Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.Edward Cullen.

Right, i can never stop.

Semangat met at 1230.But ended up heading to E!Hub Cathay at 0130. Awesome kan.(:

Got three tickets and headed down 'shopping' for food. As usual, i teach both my sidekicks nonsense. (Sorry for tht.) HAHA, i know it's illegal. But who cares.

Throughout the 2hr show, there's a lot of oohs and aahs from ofcos, females. to who?

EDWARD CULLLLLEEEEEENNNNNNN LAH ABEHHHHHH.

^^

Okay dah. Nak tgk lagik lah.

TODAY, 19th.

Went to cousin's class bbq pit.

Reached at 6pm and i start the day off by sitting by the beach and listening to Lucky.

Ate a bit, sat on the bench. & Fizah, you know i know. (haha)

then, i saw HIM! -.- & i feel the hatred in me.

Fizah laugh whenever i glared and giving him the angry face.

Haha. Menyampah you know. Like so attached together.

If you trying to make my cousin jealous, then no way man! She is SO NOT.

She got better people to be involved in rather than you, freak.

When the sun sets, me and cuz sat by the beach again, thinking, laughing, venting our anger & doodle. i'm sure he has some other probs. he's not avoiding you alright?

besides, it would be his loss if he were to avoid you. you're one in a million.

trust me, maybe he's busy. that's all (:

ended the day with sis fetching us.

WEY, I LOVE YOU LAH.

& there are so many stars tonight <3

it takes a night to make a dawn.

it takes a day to make you yawn.

it takes some cold to feel the sun.

it takes a crane to build a crane.

it takes 2 floors to make a story.

it takes an egg to make a hen.

it takes a hen to make an egg.

there is no end to what i'm saying.

it takes a thought to make a word.

it takes some words to make an action.

it takes some work to make it work.

it takes some good to make it hurt.

it takes some bad for satisfaction.

it takes no time to fall in love. but it take you years to know what love is.
life is wonderful, and hurting.

i'll update abt tday, probably tmr.

:(

DAY 2- GENTING.

WHAT'S OVER IS OVER.
i told you, she told you.
let history be history.
& search for a better future.
i got mine, & i think you do too (?)
that i'm not sure.
but respect other's life, please?
once i stand, i won't go crawling back.
cos' that would be a waste of efforts & time.
i would only go crawling back, if i think it is worth it.
but for now & forever, i don't think so it is.
forget it.
as days go by, i'm hating you more and more.

freak.

Currently in KL now, 'till Monday(:
It was so hard to say goodbye.
I miss Mum, 19more days!
I miss Anwar, 3more days!(exclude when he has family chalet)

Thanks for the e-mail,bby.
ily.

AND MUM'S COMING BACK ON NEW YEAR'S EVE??????????????????????????????????